Feelin' Like Writin' Again

I used to want to be a writer. For the same reasons everyone else and their brother wants to be a writer. I can write, right? I mean on the most basic level, making a sentence is not all that difficult for me, so why not write a novel? Or a screenplay? Writers make millions of dollars, they are extremely respected for their work. At the time I made minimum wage plus some and was extremely non-respected.

Great reasoning, right? I spent 5 full years pursuing this goal full-time, at a big-name university. Then I graduated. Then I quickly gave up. I had learned enough about the world to realize that just because I can physically write (like spell words and make a sentence), doesn't mean I should expect to make a living as a writer.

I did a lot of soul-searching and I realized that I had spent my life more as a reader of books, as a reader of short stories, as a watcher of movies, than a creator. I was (and still am) the ultimate consumer. I couldn't change how I was, I tried to change for five years and really was only mediocre at best.

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So all this I know, all this I have processed and dealt with. So why am I suddenly feeling like I want to write again? I don't know if it's the depression/no job/new city talking, or if there's really something there this time...